As adoptive parents, we accept that there will be a lot of missing puzzle pieces in our son or daughter’s early years. We know that the same questions we have our child will struggle with 100 times more. We spend many hours laying in bed preparing ourselves for the inevitable questions…trying to think of the best words to say when the time comes. Praying we handle things “right”. Praying for guidance. We think a lot about our children’s birth parents and previous care givers, and wish there was a way to let them know that the baby they love and think of daily is still loved, safe, and healthy. We wish that when we went to the pediatrician we had more history to give them vs a blank stare and a shrug. What happens when all of the sudden there is glimpse into your child’s lost years? That is exactly what has happened to me this weekend. I have found several videos of Bo’s early years. Best yet they were of the moments that every parent cherishes…the first steps! Maria’s Big House of Hope has promised to find me more! WHAT AN AMAZING GIFT! In the mean time I have scoured their blog during the time Bo (aka Julian) was there. Every time I see his beautiful baby face and electric smile, I burst into tears. Another puzzle piece slides into place! THANK YOU MBHOH!!!!http://showhope.org/julian/ As well as complete gratitude, I have felt like this gift has stirred something inside of me. I am feeling called….to what I am not sure yet. Perhaps it’s as simple as doing fundraising for MBHOH. Maybe it’s more. I don’t know yet. Perhaps it’s as simple as sharing this with all of you, and urge you to once again consider adoption. There are so many children that just need families to take the leap of faith and say YES! Part of the reason I have been so emotional this weekend is realizing that Bo had such great love and attention for a period of time, and then he was called back to the orphanage where he was one in 850 children. He sat there for more than 4 years….waiting….hoping…..longing to feel that kind of love again. It’s no wonder Bo doesn’t want to leave my side. Sigh…. Please consider adoption. Please. All these children want is love….the love of a family.
Today has been a tough day for several reasons. It was one of those days that you start to lose hope and faith. Then the day turned on a dime. Isn’t it amazing how that can happen? It all changed with a FaceBook message from my friend Renee Booe. She had told me that Show Hope contacted her a few weeks ago because of her posts of the pictures she took of “Gotcha Day” with Bo. They thought they may have cared for Bo at Maria’s Big House of Hope. She reached out to me at that time to get Bo’s Chinese name and DOB. We had no record that he had spent time at Maria’s Big House of Hope, so I really didn’t hold out that much hope.
Then late this afternoon Renee said she heard back from Show Hope, and to check my email. I opened my email, and there was a BEAUTIFUL email from Show Hope. The lady that emailed me, Cathy, said that they had indeed cared for Bo. When he was in their care, he went by the name of Julien. She said that he was very loved! That I can completely relate too. Bo is so darn loveable!!! She also said that knowing he now had a family would be of great comfort and celebration for his nannies. I sent her back an email thanking her and the staff for taking such extraordinary care of Bo. I have spent many days wondering how it was possible that Bo survived. With all of his scars, how did he find the will to live? Now I know! He knew love! He received great care! He was nursed back to health! He had hope in his heart because he knew love.
Oh did I mention they attached a picture? The first picture we have of our precious son. Are you ready for some cuteness?
As you can imagine, I quickly emailed them back thanking them! Of course I had to attach pictures of Bo now, so they can see his shining face again. Hopefully my email brings as much happiness to them as their email did to me!
Hope….what a beautiful thing! Thank you Show Hope! Thank you Maria’s Big House of Hope! Thank you!!