As adoptive parents, we accept that there will be a lot of missing puzzle pieces in our son or daughter’s early years. We know that the same questions we have our child will struggle with 100 times more. We spend many hours laying in bed preparing ourselves for the inevitable questions…trying to think of the best words to say when the time comes. Praying we handle things “right”. Praying for guidance. We think a lot about our children’s birth parents and previous care givers, and wish there was a way to let them know that the baby they love and think of daily is still loved, safe, and healthy. We wish that when we went to the pediatrician we had more history to give them vs a blank stare and a shrug. What happens when all of the sudden there is glimpse into your child’s lost years? That is exactly what has happened to me this weekend. I have found several videos of Bo’s early years. Best yet they were of the moments that every parent cherishes…the first steps! Maria’s Big House of Hope has promised to find me more! WHAT AN AMAZING GIFT! In the mean time I have scoured their blog during the time Bo (aka Julian) was there. Every time I see his beautiful baby face and electric smile, I burst into tears. Another puzzle piece slides into place! THANK YOU MBHOH!!!!http://showhope.org/julian/ As well as complete gratitude, I have felt like this gift has stirred something inside of me. I am feeling called….to what I am not sure yet. Perhaps it’s as simple as doing fundraising for MBHOH. Maybe it’s more. I don’t know yet. Perhaps it’s as simple as sharing this with all of you, and urge you to once again consider adoption. There are so many children that just need families to take the leap of faith and say YES! Part of the reason I have been so emotional this weekend is realizing that Bo had such great love and attention for a period of time, and then he was called back to the orphanage where he was one in 850 children. He sat there for more than 4 years….waiting….hoping…..longing to feel that kind of love again. It’s no wonder Bo doesn’t want to leave my side. Sigh…. Please consider adoption. Please. All these children want is love….the love of a family.