It’s 3:00 am, and I can’t sleep

Published July 27, 2014 by megchristo

Here I am in a hotel in Zhengzhou, China….just a few hours until we finally have our arms around Bo, and I can’t sleep. I am wondering how the other adoptive families on our trip are doing. Are they sleeping sound in their beds with visions of sugar plums dancing through their heads? I wish I was in the land of nod, but I am not…so I will blog instead. The anticipation is making my heart beat so hard and so fast. I think I am experiencing every emotion possible!

Tonight for the first time on the trip Elle woke up at about 1:00 am with nightmares. I held her, reassured her that I was here, and how much I loved her. In a moment that melted my heart, she also insisted on seeing MJ who was sleeping in the bed next to us. MJ woke up too, and Elle went over to his bed for hugs and reassurance. MJ hugged on her, and told her how much he loved her. This moment was so precious wrapped in its own history of tragedy. 18 months ago Elle wouldn’t even look at MJ. Now she needs his reassurance of love as much as she needs mine. Wow! I love love and the power of love! Then she crawled back into bed with me, wrapped her arms around me, and let out a content sigh. Next she said, “Mommy, I love you all day long.” I said, “Elle, I have always loved you, and will always love you.” She then kissed me, and drifted off. Since that time I have laid here thinking and wondering about Bo. How long will it take him to return my feelings of love?

Since I have some time on my hands, I will catch you up on Gabe’s view of China. Watching Gabe absorb China and the culture has been so fun. He has helped MJ and I appreciate everything more. He is a chatter box about what he is seeing, and his perspective on it. Gabe actually enjoys the fact that people come up and want our picture. He likes that EVERYONE is staring at us all the time. I think it has helped increase my patience with all of that. I am so glad he came along, and the best parts of the trip are still yet to come! Luckily another family brought their 9 year old son, and he and Gabe have become fast friends. They are never bored. They are always making the best of our waits and drives places, so it has worked out beautifully.

Elle has been so good, and such a trooper so far. It is very hot here, and we have had days packed with walking. She hasn’t asked to be carried at all. She keeps up with the group, and has kept her spunky, happy attitude. However she is horrified by the squatty potty. Every time we have to use one she declares very loudly how disgusting it is. Every time it makes me giggle. She used squatty potties for years, and now doesn’t seem to remember it at all. In fact, I had to reteach her the art of the squatty potty. She still thinks it is disgusting.

Today we meet our new friend Renee Booe. She flew in from Japan to photograph our adoption process. What a gift! You can follow her on Facebook or on Instagram. On FB, she is Renee Booe Photography. On Instagram it is @spuronlove. Renee is super sweet, and I feel like I have known her for years already. Elle acts like she is her long lost aunt. It’s amazing!

We are so close to Bo now! I will try to sneak in a couple more hours of sleep. Please keep us all in your thoughts and prayers! I will post pics of Bo ASAP!

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