Our journey to China has begun! MJ and I are now waiting in Chicago for our flight to Beijing. While I was boarding the flight in Des Moines I had tears in my eyes. I was thinking about how long we had planned for this day. I was thinking about finally holding my daughters in my arms. I was thinking about how much I was going to miss my boys while we are on this journey to our daughters.
While we were circling over Lake Michigan to land, we were flying over the fluffiest, whitest, most beautiful clouds. The kind of clouds that look like cotton candy, but I am sure would taste even sweeter. The sun was just beginning to rise giving the whole scene a heavenly, surreal glow. As we were flying over this glimpse into heaven, I was reliving childhood memories of when my sister and I would pass long summer days by laying on the grass and staring up into the heavens. We would point out clouds, and say what earthly shape they reminded us of….a dog, a heart, a monkey, etc. As soon as we would identify them as one thing they would begin to morph and take on a new shape. I think clouds and people are very similar. We are all constantly shifting and making ourselves into something new. Something even more beautiful than before.
I than began thinking of our new daughters. Soon they will be free of the label orphan. They will be Elle and Mae Christofferson. They will be American citizens. They will be our daughters…Gabe, Carsten, and Griffin’s sisters. They will be unconditionally loved, nurtured, and doted on. Most of all they will be free. Free to become the best people they can be. Little women destined to help shape the world around them. The possibilities are endless. I am thrilled to be able to watch them shift their shape into who they want to be. I am thrilled that one day they will call me mom, and shift the shape of the person I am today into a whole new form of me.